All shiny and new…
Posted in Random Nonsense on 11/13/2007 09:27 am by toriI don’t know if I like it. I mean, yeah, stability’s a good thing. Keeps us (in the regal sense) from smashing glasses and slashing wrists (I kid), but I’m different in ways I can’t explain. I’m not me anymore, but I am, but I’m not. My poetry’s different - my interactions are different. People like me - people DON’T like me. I can’t tell if my “new” personality is who I should be or who the meds think I should be.
I like it - like speaking my mind, like being less conformist to those who I really, really, really want to like me. I’ve stopped chameleoning as much. But I still want you to like me - just who I am when I’m not putting on the afraid face and the eager nod. K?
Sometimes I feel like I’ve recovered from something really big and I want a shiny gold star but no one’s going to give that star because they really deserve it - they’re the ones who put up with me.
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11/19/2007 at 10:26 pm
Dang, hon. I’ll make you a big gold star. I’ve got some shiny gold lame that I bought last year for the Christmas that never was and I’d be more than happy to make you a star. I mean, you ARE a star, hon.
Email me your snail mail addy and I’ll send you one before 12th night.
XO
11/20/2007 at 4:55 pm
You absolutely deserve a star!!!
So glad that you are feeling good sweetie as the ‘new’ you.
11/25/2007 at 1:03 pm
Sounds confusing.
May you get used to it, enjoy it, and make it work for you.