Tori’s Writing Hole

Boy, am I paying for it. Having exhausted my ability to defer my student loans in their present state, I’m going to have to start paying back the government for my failed years in college. Not that it’s their problem or that college is the reason for the failure, that’s all on me. It just seems unfair that I need to repay thousands of dollars which netted me no degree.

But, Tori, you ask… couldn’t you just finish college? I really could - I’ve got around 15 more credits to complete in order to get a degree in psychology. But now I’m a mom, a writer, a full time disabled person - I don’t know how much more I can fit on this already sagging paper plate. So I sit here and wonder. If I do get that degree, I’ll be in more debt. More money will need to be borrowed in order for me to finish. Will I make more money if I finish? That I don’t know, because I don’t plan to start working outside the home again until Julia’s at least 5 and in school. Plus, I never know when illness will rear its ugly head again.

So I’ll have to keep thinking on this topic, and paying for mistakes I made in the past. I have to follow through on something in my life.

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